Sunday, October 31, 2010

I'm Off Tomorrow!

So I might post something? Who knows...:D

Friday, October 15, 2010

Me and I...It's Forever...

I have this deep fear.

That when I grow older, I'll start talking out loud, to no one in particular but to myself.

I do it now.  I talk to myself all the time.  I do enjoy the cozy twosome.

The only difference is that, when I indulge in conversations-with-self, no one can hear what's being said.  It's a silent spoken communication.

In my head:

Me:  Have I really talked about X to someone or was it to myself?  

I: Oh God! I can't remember.  Was it a real conversation?

Me:  I think not.  

I:  Dear God! I'm going crazy...

Yesterday, on my way for a smoking break, from afar, I saw a man, gesticulating wildly to no one in particular.  Since I'm short-sighted, I didn't spot the phone in his hands.

Me:  This guy is nuts.  

I: Uh huh.  *snicker*

Me: Uh oh...

I: What?

Me: Don't you see it?

I: Oh shucks! He's talking to someone on his phone.  He's not nuts.

Me:  He does look like one though.  I mean I can't do that, you know.  Plugging a pair of ear pieces to my phone and then someone calls and I pick up and I whisper loudly on the attached mic.

I:  I know what you mean.  I can't have people throwing me weird looks! 

Me:  But do you remember, years ago, you were doing the same ish?  Talking to Honey Lips while you are standing in a crowded bus, hanging on to your dear life?  It is pretty useful sometimes, ain't it?

An audible growl from I...

I: Fuck you looking at? 

Me: You growled and she heard you! *giggle* 

I:  Ha! She must think I'm crazy. 

And now, I blogged it!

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Now What Should This Title Be?

I nervously look at him.

He's smiling. Oh! He's good-looking.  He's got that joie de vivre je-ne-sais-quoi about him.

However beguiling his smile is, fear fused with excitement grips my heart.  Please let this go down smoothly.  Please God!

"So, talk to me...", he confidently and reassuringly says.

I begin to talk and in between, he interrupts me with impertinent questions.  I unconsciously touch my burning cheeks.  Nothing really shocks me but somehow his probing into my private matter does.

"You look so nervous.  I'm sure it's not the first time you...", he teases when I cut him off.

"No, actually it's my third time..."

"For how long you've been married?", he asks and I answer.

"Relax, it'll be over soon", and somehow that sentence didn't reassure me at all.

"Take off your pants and lie down", he orders me.  Oh my!

I feel queasy.  I look around.  I swallow hard.  I try to breathe.  In and out.  In and out...

I hope he won't unceremoniously chuck it inside me like it happened the first time!

I take off my pants, lie down and wait for him.  He nears me and says, "Make sure you take the pills, otherwise I won't be able to help you."

I nod.  Please do whatever you gotta do quickly!

I shut my eyes tightly and send a tiny prayer to the Almighty.  Then I feel this cold thing on my belly.

Oh! He won't get his fingers inside me then! What a relief! 

I try to peek at the monitor while he moves the transducer all over my lower belly.  I can't see anything!

"All clear.  No infections.  No cysts.  You have a normal size uterus. I'll put you on a programme and let's see how soon we can get you a baby," he finally resolves.

I let out a sigh of relief.  Thank God!  I thought my uterus was kidnapped by cysts! Now all I gotta do is to seriously quit smoking and put my womb to good use!

I want that baby, dammit!

P.S: I'm back on Blogger.  Yes, I know I suck but hey I miss you guys over at Tumblr! It's not the same without y'all! :(  Now give me a hug!! ;p

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Moved to Tumblr!

I'm keeping this blog open too!

Mainly, I'll blog on Tumblr.  Got a new job and I don't really have time to do pretty much anything else but work.

As it's easier to post on Tumblr - especially when you're at work! -, I'll do my best to update it as often as I can!

So why don't you head over to Oh, The Things You'll Read and subscribe?! ;p

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Oh My!

I can't remember the last time I checked this blog.

So much has happened since my last post.

Thought I would sit down and get a new layout for this blog but I kinda got 'strayed' away.

Anyway, I'll be doing the layout this week-end.  Hopefully!

Also, I've got a few things I gotta ponder on...Updates will be coming soon.

Lost 2 followers. :p

No worries.

So yeah, I'll get down to business real soon.

Hope y'all enjoying a good week-end?