I nervously look at him.
He's smiling. Oh! He's good-looking. He's got that joie de vivre je-ne-sais-quoi about him.
However beguiling his smile is, fear fused with excitement grips my heart. Please let this go down smoothly. Please God!
"So, talk to me...", he confidently and reassuringly says.
I begin to talk and in between, he interrupts me with impertinent questions. I unconsciously touch my burning cheeks. Nothing really shocks me but somehow his probing into my private matter does.
"You look so nervous. I'm sure it's not the first time you...", he teases when I cut him off.
"No, actually it's my third time..."
"For how long you've been married?", he asks and I answer.
"Relax, it'll be over soon", and somehow that sentence didn't reassure me at all.
"Take off your pants and lie down", he orders me. Oh my!
I feel queasy. I look around. I swallow hard. I try to breathe. In and out. In and out...
I hope he won't unceremoniously chuck it inside me like it happened the first time!
I take off my pants, lie down and wait for him. He nears me and says, "Make sure you take the pills, otherwise I won't be able to help you."
I nod. Please do whatever you gotta do quickly!
I shut my eyes tightly and send a tiny prayer to the Almighty. Then I feel this cold thing on my belly.
Oh! He won't get his fingers inside me then! What a relief!
I try to peek at the monitor while he moves the transducer all over my lower belly. I can't see anything!
"All clear. No infections. No cysts. You have a normal size uterus. I'll put you on a programme and let's see how soon we can get you a baby," he finally resolves.
I let out a sigh of relief. Thank God! I thought my uterus was kidnapped by cysts! Now all I gotta do is to seriously quit smoking and put my womb to good use!
I want that baby, dammit!
P.S: I'm back on Blogger. Yes, I know I suck but hey I miss you guys over at Tumblr! It's not the same without y'all! :( Now give me a hug!! ;p